Every person living with Charcot Foot faces uncertainty. For Courtney, the uncertainty of Charcot Foot has become overwhelming. She says the emotional toll of Charcot Foot has been far worse for her than the physical impact. We are thankful Courtney has decided to share her experience living with Charcot Foot.
Multiple surgeries to treat Charcot Foot
Courtney has had multiple surgeries on both feet due to Charcot Foot and secondary infections. She has had ulcers that were slow to heal and has experienced many slow healing wounds due to diabetes and Charcot Foot. Her surgeries have included the removal of two toes, one surgery with an external fixator, two corrective surgeries to treat wounds and infection following her external fixator surgery and a surgery to clear infection from an infection related to an ulcer. She anticipates more surgeries in her future.
“I’ve spent 22 of the last 36 months non-weight bearing and recovering from surgery,” Courtney said. “A lot of people think I should just give up and go with amputation but I don’t want to go that route yet. I do think the surgeries have helped me keep my feet. I’m just not as mobile as I’d like to be.”
Currently, Courtney is being treated for another bone infection. She has an appointment with a surgeon soon and is fearful she is reaching the point where amputation is the only option.
Emotional impact of Charcot Foot
Courtney is 59-years-old and married. She has one adult daughter. Both her husband and daughter have been a good support to her but both are now urging her to consider amputation. Courtney is hesitant to move forward with amputation because the anxiety she now feels.
“I’ve been inside for so long now, shut off from the things I used to enjoy,” Courtney says. ” If I had the amputation I could probably walk again, go do things, travel. But the idea of leaving the house, talking to people, being in a crowd… it makes me have a panic attack just thinking about it. I think I use Charcot as an excuse now to just stay in and not deal with my anxiety.”
Prior to being diagnosed with Charcot Foot, Courtney says she experienced small bouts of anxiety and depression. Since her diagnosis she reports a marked increase in the frequency and intensity of her anxiety and depression. She has talked with her doctor about her feelings and has started taking medication to treat both the anxiety and depression but she has not sought out therapy services.
“I don’t want to talk to a therapist about it,” Courtney says. “I’m a private person. And I’d have to go to a therapist’s office and that is just one more trip my husband or daughter would have to help with.”
Coping with Charcot Foot
Courtney says coping with Charcot Foot has become her full-time job. Since she is home bound she says she spends a good deal of time researching Charcot Foot. She has recently become very interested in the nutritional component and says that since changing her diet she has seen an improvement in her Charcot Foot and feels better emotionally. She is now follow a high protein, low carb diet.
She took up crocheting when she was diagnosed with Charcot Foot and enjoys the feeling of accomplishment she has when she completes a project.
Courtney says she also notices a difference in her mood when she keeps her mind busy. She tries to complete a puzzle every week and it has become the family joke that no one can leave the house without getting three pieces put together. She also likes word searches, crossword puzzles and reading.
To help take some of the load off of her husband and daughter she orders almost all of her groceries through AmazonFresh. She is the second person we have met using AmazonFresh and she has been pleased with the service. She can have unlimited groceries delivered to her door for $14.99 a month.
Try AmazonFresh Free Trial“I get creative and have figured out a way to have almost everything I need delivered to the house,” Courtney says. “I haven’t really walked or shopped in over two years now. It’s amazing how many things you can have delivered. Is it the way I pictured living my life, no, but I’m able to have my needs met and I think I still have a good life.”
Courtney is a very private person and we know sharing her experience with Charcot Foot was challenging for her. We are so very thankful she decided to push herself and share with us and our readers. We know Courtney isn’t the only person with Charcot Foot struggling with anxiety and depression. Even if you are stuck at home there are still options for mental health support. Consider giving Better Help Online Counseling a try or reach out to your local mental health center. Some therapists are willing to do home visits. Please know you aren’t alone.
If you would like to learn about the experiences of others living with Charcot Foot take a moment to read about Jessie, Jennifer, Charlie, Joe, Beth and Lindsay. If you would like to share your experience contact us.